IPCC - A Whole New Chapter

It’s all about last 10 months, more like a confession maybe. I am hardly used to praise anything that happens to me as criticizing things and people is only what I am used to, which I do know is a bad habit. Anyways, still whatever I lived in last 10 months, I just felt like noting it down, probably inspired by the ‘diary habit’ of my one close friend.

So, it was March 2011 ending I guess when things started to change, though not being part of the IPCC tale, they did play a role in forming beginning of the same. On the very next day of conclusion of my board exams, I was asked to consider the idea of joining CA on the same day. Honestly, I always used to hate remaining busy, emphasizing on ‘studying’ here. But still, putting faith upon my sis, I joined and yes, I did clear the first level – CPT in June, without joining coaching classes. Naah, I am not being overwhelmingly proud here because that was 24% of miracle and 75% of my sis’s efforts, rest 1% were mine attributable to attending the exams. Anyways, the point is, CPT could never bring any change in me unlike I had expected. I remained one net addicted guy with no clear idea of actions, rude to some extent [don’t know that present condition in this area] and dead-hearted to the community of books.

Then, it was July 23^rd, yes, when IPCC started, the second level. I had joined classes and I was much sure how much I was going to hate it, having heard that IPCC will require 12 to 14 hours a day of coaching and at least 2 hours of reading. Okay, any normal person will be scared of this, so was I. The other fear of mine contained meeting new people. I had familiar with people in the school since long so I hadn’t faced any situation like this in a long time. I was being with my old school friend and that was the only matter of consolation for me. A net addict? Yes, I still was.

And then, MAGIC. Something just happened that changed everything. It was just 3^rd or 4^th lecture. I started behaving more responsibly and concentrating in the classes and studies just became easier. In the beginning, yes I did get tired like hell in the mid of the day itself, but slowly, magic tricks started working more effectively. In 2 or 3 months, I knew I was going to get things I wanted. Finally, ‘Net Addict’ – this word I wont need to mention again in the next lines.

Till October, I remained isolated from others and just kept on finding new magic tricks. :D  But then, I started interacting more with people, made some really good friends. Not to forget, I got a very good and close friend around December.

Things were becoming better. I was getting prepared for the biggest and toughest tasks. I was changing. I was no more isolated personality. Instead, I loved interacting with people. Again mentioning, all because of the magic! Some great days included 7^th and 29^th Jan.

5^th Feb was coming, I was going to become an adult and SO, I did have some serious but amazing plans for the day, I was getting excited, and the day came, and it didn’t let me apply the magic. Well, I did get some idea about the actions I was supposed to take. Still, going with the positive hopes, I let things happen by themselves.

February end, classes ended and tadaa, another magic trick! Some force around me reminded me of my job, what I was meant to do and what I was meant to forgo. Next 2 months were going to be hell of a tough task. No classes, no friends, no movies, no feelings – just studies! I accepted the facts and went on with it, leaving myself to miss the Things.

I don’t know whether I succeeded in performing my job correctly or not, but it ended anyways. Life has changed now, really. I have changed, I guess. Magic tricks don’t work anymore, because they don’t need to maybe.

Anyways, I may or may not clear IPCC, I can’t be sure, nobody can be. That life might look different from the other eyes; but from mine, it was beautiful, it was lovely, it was awesome, it helped me improvise to a great extent. And the end brought me to a pre-defined destination, where I was supposed to find the answer to the question: ‘Why MAGIC worked till February end only?’ I guess I found it.

Okay so conclusion? I have nothing to conclude with, conclusions are always difficult anyways. Only confessions I had. I obviously don’t want to face those books again ever. But the IPCC for me, was much more than just ‘books’. I want all the other things to happen to me again. I hope, in future, every time I go through this thing I have written, I may want to try out the magic tricks again, hoping that I would succeed one day, and I WILL!! Till then, last 10 months will remain backdrop to a story that never ended..

A Long Lone Road

A new small town -New people, new relations, new life and a new person in myself. I had never been that much excited ever before whenever I had been a guest to any town. There was something about this one, maybe something there wanted me not to remain a stranger to its existence.

One thing that stood apart from everything else there was -A long Lone Road.  It was unending, letting itself to get disappeared into the horizon. Its calmness and beauty struck into my head, leaving me wanting to be a passer by. Standing on one end of it, I was becoming rather a dreamer of achieving the other end. I sat there for hours everyday, getting obsessed with the same dream. Many a times I also prepared myself for the journey, but fear inside always kept me away – fear of rejection by the achievement of dreams, fear of never completing the journey. Days passed and same things repeated again and again, and all happened for nothing; until I had to realize that I was supposed to remain a stranger only, until I had to leave the town, to go back to loved ones and to complete the unfinished tasks and duties; breaking all the dreams behind, leaving the lone road alone again. A bit of grief surrounded myself, but anyways, no thing in the world is supposed to be ever lasting. I returned, I was home and back to a normality.

And now, years after, I am back to the same town; everything being same except that the road is no longer a lone road. There are thousands of roads and lakhs of people around here now. I am searching for the road, but this time also failing, a sudden feeling of having everything to blame for but nothing to blame at has shadowed my vision, realizing that the loneliness was mere an illusion, always!